I just feel numb

I dont feel anything AT ALL anymore, the only time i feel something is due to my intrusive thoughts (from my ocd) and its usually just anger/sadness. Ive been struggling for a long time and i dont have anyone to talk to about it, i isolated myself for 2 years (not leaving the house at all only RAREly after being forced) I dont have any friends and my family dont get it. I dont know whats wrong with me and i dont know if itll ever be fixed. I just feel completely empty, i know its bad but i try fill the hole by getting into relationships but i just end up getting my heartbroken. Idk what to do anymore