Im not feeling enough

Hi, this is my first post, I’m just trying to don’t get crazy, my first language it’s Spanish so I’m sorry if I’m not good enough expressing myself. But, I’m married and I know I have a problem since my mom it’s a little bit narcissistic, you know a complicated background but still I’m trying to help her as much as I can, I decide to get marry and I just live a couple of weeks with my husband but the problem with my husband is that he told me that I supposed to talk about my past, with him, he’s “jealous” of people that was in my past but I never let this people in my life again since I met him, the thing is that during our whole relationship I’ve been trying to be the best girlfriend and now wife but he still thinking that I’m a c*nt or something because that how he makes me feel, he’s not a bad person he’s sweet but when he’s jealous he’s just know how to make me feel bad, I think I don’t like to share my thoughts with nobody because I think nobody cares and understand how I feel with all this pressure in my chest, I have to help my mom, I have to be a nice wife but why I did all of this and I’m still not enough? I know it’s no one else fault just mine because I’m not trying to put blame on anybody, but it’s weird how I’m charging all this fault and feeling empty and alone and that I must be there for everyone else.