I'm struggling
Trigger warning : Drugs and Alcohol
Hello everyone! My 15th birthday is tomorrow and I don't know how to feel about it! I am going to share some of my story, I just need support.
When I was 1 I was adopted by my parents that I live with now. When my birth mom was pregnant she was heavily addicted to drugs and alcohol she was 24 at the time, she didn't know she was pregnant with me, she was living on the streets and just trying to get money to continue that addiction. She got arrest and made her take a pregnancy test because her period was irregular from the drugs she was taking. Turns out it came out positive and they rushed her to the hospital trying to get her the foods she needs because they didn't know how far along she was ( She was 30 weeks pregnant ) when they found out how far along she was they didn't make her get up or anything because they didn't want me to come out, a few days later her water broke and she was on hospital bed rest, I was born at 31 weeks with Fetal Alcohol Syndrome and born addicted to the drugs she took. I was in the NICU until I was 5 weeks old, my birth mom got in contact with my Adopted mother having her take me.
I love my parents, but I also want to get to know my birth mom, I have a older brother ( birth dads side ) and 2 younger sisters ( birth mom side ) And I have 2 younger brothers ( Adopt ) and 1 older sister ( adopt mom side )
I got to be in contact with my birth mom for about 2 years before she just disappeared on me, I haven't contacted her since my 14th birthday which is almost a year ago, I want to get to know my siblings and my mom it's just hard.
@Averies
Today is my birthday and I was trying not to think about all the things I went through, I left a lot of stuff out of my story yesterday because I was scared I was gonna get judged ( but nobody responded which is okay I am not forcing anyone to respond ) I am a total overthinker so it is hard for me to get stuff out of my mind without thinking people are going to leave me or make fun of me, I also have a lot of disabilities that effect my day to day life.
My birth mom didn't even say happy birthday to me which hurts and I know a lot of people will say to me " focus on the people that love you and care about you " But I know a lot of people didn't go through what I went through. I tried so hard to make a relationship with my Birth mom just for her to leave me for a year, I didn't give up I still let her know what was happening everyday until my 14th birthday which was a year ago. I don't know what to do. I just want to give up.
If you would like to know my full story I will be more then happy to share it with you.
@Averies Hi hun ill be here for you if you need to talk. I am 20 year old female if that matters but i will love to hear you out xx
@MissssT
Thank you! Also thank you for letting me talk and letting me talk to you
@MissssT
Do you want to create a new form to talk?
If not we can also talk on here
Only if you want to talk