I need a friend or friends.

I feel so alone. I don't have anyone I feel I can really talk to. I don't want to be a burden to anyone, but I desperately want someone to talk to that can offer advise. I am depressed, confused, alone, and really tired of pretending everything is okay.

My life is and has always been a sh*tshow. I am definitely the punchline of many people's jokes.... I wish I had someone...anyone to talk to. I literally live for my dog, if not for her I'd have self deleted years ago. I've tried therapy, it just leaves me feeling more alone and isolated than before. I've tried talking to my friends but they have their own issues in life so it turns to them venting and me listening and trying to help them, because I want them to feel supported. I'm just tired of feeling so alone. I secretly am ready for my dog to pass so I can too....