I need help!

@1Bm

I understand the feeling of being a single parent during holidays, but maybe try this....

It may be a little while, not too long, but you will meet someone... And although it will be exhilarating, you will notice that it will take some of your focus away from your kids, some time, then more time. Your kids will notice, because it is very hard to balance a new adult in the home with kids needs. 

There will come a time that you just wish that you could have one season with just your kids, to give them 100% of your love and attention, and make it so incredibly memorable because they had all of you just for that season... 

When you meet someone new, which will probably be within 1 year, you will either look back on this season as an amazing bonding time with your kids that you will never get another chance to do, or a season that they might feel like they aren't good enough to make you happy (and I know that's not what you mean). And it's up to you to realize this is a once in a lifetime chance, because your kids will be not the same kids next year, much grown, and you will have only half of your attention to give them next year. 

I'm saying this from experience. You have the best people already with you this holiday, so give them your best!