I need some help
I am having thought that I feel like I am not completely like I am missing a part of me I feel like I am not a man or a woman but at the same time I feel like I am bothI don't know what to do I have expressed this to my husband and it is hard for him to understand he says he will love me no matter what but he also says that if I get a gender affirmation surgery it might be a turn off for him in are sexual life and it is already hard to enjoy sex because I usually can't take it for to long We say our love is not about sex and that is mostly true but a part of me is scared that if I was to change my body he will leave. And I was born a male but at times I dress in fem clothes and he likes but he doesn't think if I changed my physical body he could have sex with me. Not only that I have not told my dad about how I feel he was excepting that I am bisexual, but I think he would hate me if I came out how I felt. They are my world and I would feel lost and empty without them. I feel as if I am being dragged in to helheim when I think about it and it hurt my chest.
@alexandergoncz
It's clear how much you love your husband and what a caring person he is.
You are struggling with so much at this time.
It might help you both to explore things in a healthy and safe fashion, to find out what you both are comfortable and not comfortable with.
But promising not to cross each other boundaries.
And keeping communication, clear and always honest.
And not acting on anything without discussion or reacting rashly, it's important to not rush into anything.
It's important you feel comfortable within yourself.
I'm sorry intimacy is not something that you feel completely at ease with.
This could be something you both look into together, to find more connection and enjoyment as a couple.
Take care, both of you 💚😊
