It’s change, only for the moment

I thought real change was happening. I started to see words taking form and hope was starting to shine its way into my life. I then see this man, who told another person to stick his tongue out towards my direction. In an instant, this triggered me. Is it too good to be true, is this a sign. And it was. The change was undone. It was just an illusion to trick people into thinking that something was being done. All hope is gone. I think to myself, this is not a life worth living. The girl i am with does not know what is going on. She is confused about the world that I am drowning in. I become distant, alone, removing myself from reality because it consist of people who will do whatever they please as long as it pleases their agenda. I start to feel like people don’t change, they give the perception until they figure out another way to resume back to what they want. Is there any hope. I can’t sleep, I loose motivation to fight, isolate myself but with no one by my side, so what’s the point in living.