It stops right here
I am no longer the dreamer I used to be. I feel I can't do anything. I can no longer write meaningful texts and contents. I cannot even process the right words to use. I became so numb that I feel and do nothing about my life. It feels like everything is falling-my skills, aspirations, my confidence. I feel like I am becoming a no one. I feel so blank and plain. Everyday is a struggle to move or to do the smallest things a normal person does. It's like pulling my body all the time, it's lifting the heaviest. I am in the phase where I am accepting what's really going on with my life and just doing nothing about it. I am tired of fighting it. I do not know what to do next.
Omg this hits to the core 🫂
@ty47 I know, and it hits painfully
That sounds so painful. Usually the first step after you realize that your pain is reaching dangerous levels is to evaluate the levels of support that you are getting and try to find more. Do you talk to anyone about this? @Hypergraphia
@bestVase7265 Currently I am talking to a Psychiatrist. I am taking meds for anxiety and depression. Hoping everything will be fine someday.
But it is so hard waiting for that to happen. It does, but you never know when the light is going to come. Sending strength and peace. @Hypergraphia
the fact that you also feel this way and understand what I am going through has somehow helped me.
I do not feel alone.
I have lately not had the capacity to even get up and shower, or cook myself food or work.
Im scared I will loose my job, apartment, fiancee, health... what do we do