Just a rant.

I feel kinda awkward cause this is the first post I'm making about my problems. So please be patient with me if I am jumping back and forth and rambling about anything that could be irrelevant or unnecessary.

So I got this app because I am struggling with my mental health a lot more than I used to. There's a lot of things I need to get off my chest, especially about stuff that happened in my past. I thought that I could just talk about what's bothering me today..?

I don't want to go in depth just yet, but ultimately, I can see my parents don't actually care about my feelings, but expect me to care for theirs. It's just one sided. It's even harder to talk to them when they're just already thinking of how they're going to respond when I'm done. I love my parents, and I really don't want to be another one of the adult kids that cut their parents off later in life. But they've hurt me a lot the past couple years and still are, and it's as if they expect me to just forgive and forget about it everyday, over and over again. I can't talk to them about it because if it's inconvenient for them and it makes them uncomfortable then I'm made to look inconsiderate and cruel. Everything should always be ok, even at the expense of my feelings, and if it's not ok on their end they'll just ruin everyone else's day. But if I suddenly snap, or react to things the way a sane human being should, I might get bible thumped and told I need jesus christ. Just because I had a bad day.

Sometimes I wonder if I really am the bad guy here.