Just depressed again and tired

Just so tired of everything.  Of worrying about money.  Of worrying about life.  Of family members not understanding my depression and often making it worse.  Its so stupid that I'm upset again.  After finally getting the go ahead to get rid of junk.  My father yelled at me for what I was going to get rid of.  I didn't get rid of it yet.  Why did he yell?  Because he said it is worth money.  He is a hoarder and everything is worth money to him, but he told me just a week ago that I could get rid of stuff that he doesn't use.  I hate being dependent on him.  I hate thinking that he changed and would let me get rid of stuff.  

He buys stuff all the time, yet says there is no money to fix the leaking roof.  Yet he won't sell his stuff he doesn't need or use, or let me sell it.  I've sold lots of my stuff and he even gets mad at me for selling my stuff.  Sometimes I just hate my life and today is one of those days.  He can't ever just talk, always has to yell.  If he doesn't agree with you, you better watch it because he is always right and will just yell or threaten to kick you out.  (I haven't been threaten with that in a while.  But my brother was.)  I hate being disabled and not able to currently leave.   And of course I hate myself.

Sorry for the post and thanks for reading.