Lonely

Whenever I meet someone new, they like me at first but very few of the friendships actually last. They eventually end up getting tired of me. No matter how long I know them for, no matter how good I am, they just don’t make anymore time for me. They say they’re ‘busy’ but they’re just making excuses. I recently was stood up for a simple lunch with a friend for the second time. They apologized the first time but then they did it all over again. I haven’t seen them since and I don’t want to. My whole life I’ve been jerked around. I’ve never had friends that lasted long enough to actually bond with, I’ve never had a girlfriend, girls don’t even give me a chance. My experiences at this point make my life feel meaningless. It’s like having neglectful and unloving parents. My parents are good to me but my experiences have given me the same kind of pain throughout my life.