My Life story
Please note I am only 15 and only remember so much.
Also fake names.
Tw/ Sh, SA, Suicide, Melostation, Mental abuse
So my life started on May 1st, 2009, I was born to a teen mom who didn't know how to raise a baby...My dad wasn't in my life much but my mom got a new boyfriend let's call him Nick, She was only with him for a little while but as a little almost one-year-old I became attached and loved the *** out of Nick, Soon my mom broke up with him and got with my current stepdad who I shall call Randall when I was 1 my real dad was still in and out of my life until I was 3 and then I completely forgot Randall isn't my real dad and I began to feel bad as a little kid and forced myself to love him even though I didn't like him. This was because I thought he was my real dad I thought me not loving him was weird and very wrong. Then that led me to doubt myself till I was like 4ish then we moved to Florida to be closer to Randall's family, Then I ended up loving them all they were all great and I could have never been the person I am right now without them Anywho At this point I got put in preschool. I had this teacher who loved me to death and I loved her I was being a good little kid going to church singing in the church choir, When Randall and my mom told me they were getting married I bout *** myself out of fear. I thought it was the end of my life, But in the end, I was forced to call him dad since I was 1 year old. As we were preparing for the wedding. My uncle came down to Florida and I thought everything was okay. Then my uncle started acting weird making me do things I didn't wanna do with him I thought it was wrong but he always threatened me. Still to this day, nobody knows the full story of what happened with him. He never got arrested because what they caught him doing was not major enough to arrest him for (In their opinion.)
Imma finish this in a minute I need finish home work and tlk to my mom.
So like 5 months after the wedding we moved back to Michigan, Once we moved back to Michigan we had no were to go so we lived with my grand parents when we got a new house we found out my uncle did things to my little sister as well.
Pass forward a few years we were in and out of Florida
Brb gotta do something for my mom
When we came back from Florida for the last time I was in 4th grade and people bullied me for "Being in the bathroom so long." There was this one kid I became rlly close w her her name was hmm madi but she ended up backstabbing me.
In 5th i was SA in the school bathroom.
In 6th i was online but i had to do summer school were i met a guy named Xan
In 7th online but ended up fighting with a girl
I was 10 when I got with my bf yall alr know his name Zek, We were young and in love, but at 11 I started popping pills and he did too but when he started he got very aggressive he would choke me and hit me and make me beg him not to end me...He made me leave all my friends and if he caught me talking to them he would beat me, When I came home beaten up a lot I told my mom "Oh just got jumped by people i don't know who I didn't see their faces" At 12 I talked to Zek about quitting pills and we did he was a lot nicer but when we quit pills his step mom started touching him and no one would believe him but me. One night, I wasn't getting no response from him so I got in touch with his sister were she told me he jumped off the school building near his house, He didn't leave no note so I blamed myself for making him quit pills.
Later on I did start to blame his step mom.
At 12 I tried to take my own life to be with a guy I loved a lot. I felt empty and hopless I thought their was nobody else for me. So I became a *** and started dating everyone that liked me even tho I didn't love none of them. This changed last summer when I met a guy his name (fake) is luke he was one of the guys I truly loved with all my heart I had just turned 14 he was 13 I thought we were meant to be just for him to use me for my body when I let my guard down. Then I went to 9th grade in a actual school were I met someone else (Fake) named josh Josh was funny, kind, And everything I ever wanted. We would call 24/7 even tho i was grounded wasn't spoussed to be. He made me feel good abt my self. But i introduced him to my bsf and they fell in love it got to be too much so I made it so they could be together and broke up with him (December). Now i have trust issues again.
(Im not typing the rest out cuz I'm too lazy)