My boyfriend is suicidal
My boyfriend and I are in a grad program in Maryland, we are both from PA. Since last Thursday, my boyfriend all of a sudden has been crying so much for no reason, said everything scares him and makes him sad. He has a piercing pain in his stomach and hasn’t eaten for days. It has gotten so bad he left work and decided he wanted to go back to his parents in PA. Today he went to the doctors and they admitted him into the ER for an evaluation because he’s talking about suicidal thoughts, he’s hopeless and wants it all to end. This hurts me more than I can describe and I feel so lost. I wish I could’ve been more of a help but he said nothing makes him happy, nothing can help him, everything is a trigger for him. I just want support and someone to talk to this is so hard to go through. I’m all alone in another state away from him and home wondering if he’s okay… it kills me waiting for him to respond. I don’t know how to keep my mind off of it. I don’t want him to feel like this it hurts to see him cry and be filled with anxiety and depression. He hasn’t been himself for days. I never went through this before with someone I don’t know what to do or how to handle it.
@indigocat444 Hi, I hope this message finds you well. I am so sorry to hear about your boyfriend and how he's feeling right now. Crisis is never easy, for the one dealing with it directly or their loved ones. I want you to know that you did everything you could for him and he knows that you love him. There is nothing you could have done differently 💗 Please try to be gentle on yourself. The other thing that's important to remember is that depression doesn't discriminate and it can come out of anywhere. It hit me like a ton of bricks in 2015 and you would never see it coming. I know he will be okay and you are both very strong. Please don't hesitate to reach out to a Listener if you feel as though you would like some extra support. I believe in both of you and I know you guys are going to be okay! Keep your heads up! <3