My mom hurts me so much
Hi everyone. I would like to prewarn u I will be mentioning some hard to handle subjects regarding emotional abuse and self harm. Please keep that in mind.
I guess to start off I can give u some info about me. My name is sky (not real name), I'm 17, Pronouns Are He/Him/His and my parents haven't been together since I was a baby. Over the summer my mom and stepdad broke up and this is the 3rd time this happened at the time. Now it's been 4 times. Ever since then my life has gone downhill.
During a visit with my dad (visits just started up again and my dad has no custody over me), I would call my mom and nicely ask her to bring my medicine. She would then go to flip out on me causing me to decide to reside with my dad.
Recently I expressed interest in changing my address in my school records so I can get a bus for my dad bc the walk is 30 minutes long. She would then go on to tell me if I did she would force an officer to take me away from my dad and she was making me do anything she wanted so I didnt get taken away. She belives she had control over me even when I turn 18. She says she still has say in my actions until I'm out of high school.
So after being so upset I got very suicidal and I texted the anti-suicide hotline and got calmed down from it. And bc of this I ended up going to bed at 2am when I had to wake up at 6am for school
As much as I didn't want to. Today I visited my mom. This was only because it was her bday. And she acted like everything was okay and what was said wasn't said. And I just don't feel like shes a good person for me to br around. If I end up going back with her. I will run away or hurt myself. I can't deal with being yelled at for calming saying something and not being allowed to be my own person.
My mom has bipolar. Keep in mind I have bipolar, autism, ODD, depression, anxiety, and ADHD. And I have a prior history of suicide attempts that I was hospitalized for. She won't accept that im turning 18 on November 21st meaning I'm getting to age where this is unacceptable.
What are ur guys thoughts and opinions on this
@SkyDaFoxx
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I'm sorry you are struggling so much and feel like you cannot turn to your mum!
I am glad you reached out to the hotline because you deserve to be safe and shoot and to find daily coping mechanisms and supports to enable you to live a more fulfilled life.
It's important to continue to advocate for what you need, irrespective of anyone else's thoughts!
I hope you are feeling a little better today and you continue to reach out and vent when you need to!
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@SkyDaFoxx it sounds like you know that you act safer toward yourself when you aren't around mom. You seem to have a lot going for you, and the truth is that once you are 18, you're a legal adult.