Once again I'm crying, cat loss

My beloved 5 year old Hopper, foster fail.  Had to be put down today.  He had what I thought was a sore in his mouth, but it was most likely cancer.  The vet said even if it wasn't cancer there wasn't anything that can be done as it was in the very back of his jaw.  And it was painful.  

I'm crying so much.  I love my Hopper Bobber (Bobber was a nickname since he bopped people a lot)  Just last year I had to put down my Candy 11 years old with cancer.  It just hurts so much.  Hopper was a very light shedder, who loved to be held.  He loved to answer you with his unusual meow.  He loved to roll in his catnip and then head butt anyone around him.  He loved his belly rubs and his friend Boots.  (My 11 year old boy, who better stay healthy)  You almost never could find him without Boots.

Winter time was Hoppers favorite as he liked to play in the snow.  He was loved dearly and will be missed greatly.  I was there with him as they put him down, and crying hasn't stopped yet.  I'm going to go spend time with Boots.