Reaching to the bottom
Hi everyone... I'm really at the point of my life where I think every day I reached bottom but every new say shows me I can fall more... After 10 years of following my bf around the world he left me in the new country,kind of kicked me out of apartment and left me with nothing... He's oretendig to be my friend but he is manipulative narcissist which during the years killed my self esteem...He left me but still doesn't let me go so I'm stuck... I'm sticking to a nice side of him but every day he hurts me more...I can't eat,sleep or anything...I tried but I throw up everything I eat... I'm stuck and I want to tell him that's not fair and he should move...He forced me to quit my job(we worked together) and rhe moment I was without job he left me... I'm trying I really am but he's such a sweet talker and I'm walking in the circle...If I try to stood up for myself he woulf just be mean and blame me and talk and talk and made me think he's right...I don't know what to do...I don't have resources to get my apartment and he does but he doesn't want
.He tells me you find me apartment...
@NoraFora
Honestly, that sounds like a pretty scary situation. It may take all your willpower, courage and determination and all the helps you can get to get you out of that vicious circle once and for all.
I'm wishing you the best.
Thank you...He made me crazy like really crazy to doubt myself in every aspect of my life but he camouflage that in sweet talk..I have to just be strong for those few minutes and just stop being nice girl for once.I know that but I'm not sure I can.
He does sound like someone who it would be good to get away from. He is doing tons of damage to you. The key is figuring out how to find your own way. Are you in a country where you want to stay? Do you have another country that you would prefer to return to? Start with those really basic questions. @NoraFora