Rock bottom
I don't know where to go from here. I've hit rock bottom. I haven't felt this depressed in so long. At least not this bad. I've been to several therapists and such and nobody believes me or diagnoses me with anything. Yesterday I was so close to self harm and I haven't felt that bad in so long. I know exactly what is causing this depression but I can't change it right now. How do I handle it in the meantime?
I am so sorry that you have been struggling. Sometimes it can take so long to find the right therapist and medication. Have you ever asked the person that you are working with for a diagnosis. Sometimes they have one but don't share it officially with you. If the self harm stuff gets bad, do go and see your doctor. If you keep calling out someone will listen eventually, even if you need to find a new doctor.
What do you do to care for yourself? How are you doing the basics like eating and drinking water? Those are good starting points. I also find forcing myself outside daily for a walk really helps. Sending peace. @gugler2019
I don't really have much I do for myself..I have an almost 3 year old so it's hard..I try to drink but I don't eat much.
Then eating is a good starting point. Force yourself where you have to. Think of how cranky that your 3 year old is when then don't eat. Your mind is the same way. You can't function or begin to heal without enough calories.
Let us know how you are doing, okay? You can check in here every day if you want.@gugler2019
Thank you. I sincerely do appreciate it 😊
So good to see you posting again. I hope that today was a bit better. @gugler2019
It was for most of the day.
That is great. The key is calling "most of the day" a victory. That takes a bit of brain training. @gugler2019
@gugler2019 throws you a tiny rope, pulls up from the hole. Gives you a giant tiny hug ❤❤ let's you know, it's all gonna be ok ❤❤ in the meantime, you need to be kind to yourself, spoil yourself take time just got you. And reach out for help here. We are all here for you ❤❤
Hi gugler2019. Let me share my experience. Maybe it will help. I have been dealing with depression for over 20 years. My last battle was about 3 months ago and it hit me pretty hard so I decided to see a psychologist for the first time in about 7 years. It helped me a lot. He discussed how anxiety and depression actually work and he also suggested for me to read 2 books. The 10 Best Ever Anxiety Management Techniques and Feeling Good. They discuss not only coping skills but talk about how bc go the brain works in regards to anxiety and depression. I really liked the books and I am still reading them. I am not a huge fitness guy but for the last 5 months or so I take a walk in my hilly neighborhood and I also jog a little bit to get my heart rate up. This helps me tremendously. I usually do it on my lunch break because I work close to home. I am also on an anti depressant which is 20 mg of Lexapro and when I go through my anxiety/depression episodes I will take Klonopin. There is hope and you will be ok. Trust me.
Thanks for sharing your experience. I do have an appointment tomorrow to talk with a therapist. I hope it helps.
