Sewing machine blues
My step-dad is a karate instructor, he asks me to remove old patches and sew them onto the new jackets he gets. This most recent time has thrown me into a very deep depression. Some backstory..backstop... I lent one of my roomates my sewing machine to fix up a hat of his. I briefly showed him how to use it and then warned him that if the material was too thick he would have to sew slower or hard stitch the item. He did not listen and broke 2 needles off in my sewing machine. I thought I was out of replacement needles and I haven't used the machine since then. My wonderful husband replaced the needles and today I needed the machine to sew the patches for my step-dad. I honestly feel as though this is one of the only times we can connect, is if im useful. I hate disappointing people... anyways the machine kept snapping the thread and wouldn't work to actually sew anything. I was trying to troubleshoot the problem and it turned into a depression spiral. Again my wonderful husband ordered a replacement piece for me and I ripped my roomate a new one for breaking my machine... im unmedicated and suffering.
You have the greatest foundation of all, That is a person in life who genuinely loves you (Your husband). Add up all of the best therapy, best medication…. They are all trying to simulate the feeling of being secure and loved, Which you already have.
It sounds like what you’re missing it to open your eyes and see that you are already so much more than useful, You are so significant to him, You probably do 100 things every week that you don’t notice that make him feel supported! And that’s why he treats you in a way that makes you call him ‘your wonderful husband’.
A loving relationship and feeling of significance seem to be the two things that drive people’s happiness…. I think you have both, I think you just underestimate just how significant and important you are within your family… And sewing is just one of so many things that you do, So give yourself credit, No man would treat you wonderfully if you weren’t the sunshine of his life. You are the sunshine of his life. I’ll pray for you that you will discover that! ☀️