Sick and tired

Everything's gone to crap. I mean literally. My boyfriend is distant because apparently he's dealing with stuff which I had no idea about but all along I thought he was losing feelings for me. He's sleeping all day, even when I come home he's sleep. (Were long distance, no he's not cheating on me). I'm supposed to be moving back in 2 weeks but this is still hard. I've been anxious and taking everything out on myself, I've starting sh-ing myself because the anxiety got so bad I got to blaming myself and telling myself I'm unattractive anymore and just a bad girlfriend which he always denies and tells me I'm so much more than that and I'm his gorgeous girl. Anytime I say we should take a break he clings to me, I hate that sometimes that's the only time I feel needed. I wait for his texts, I develop anxious attachment and the only comfort I can find that shows me he cares is if he texts in the next millisecond or wants to call me. Or if he makes an effort which he rarely does. Prior to this he had a really bad flu, I was ordering him small things (just a Gatorade with electrolytes and a teddy bear) I wanted it to be more but he hates me spending money on him so I kept in contact with his mom. He was sleep all day then, but it's justified-- my poor baby is sick. Now he's fully recovered and the only side effects he's had is a little cough, he's never told me he's been sleeping because he's going through things he's only talked about the flu. I feel like crap. I have to focus on school so that when I transfer my grades are still good, and I have to focus on my family issues because to get home I have to rely on my abusive and toxic grandma to take my to my mom our relationship is complicated. School just topples work all over me. I told my boyfriend we need to take a break and I'm the middle ground for my mom and grandma and they're not talking at all. I'm their communication .