Stressed
I'm so stressed. No matter what i do my life doesn't seem to improve. I have traumatic flashbacks lately and my life is ***. I just wanna live a happy and fulfilled life but i feel like i am doomed to misery. Life is horrible and disgusting! Like what is even this? It's some sort of sick joke. I hate it so much. I seriously wanna give up but then i understand it's not the way to do it. Plus i have so much spite and i will never give the satisfaction to others to give up on life. Just no. But i'm exhausted. College is killing me. The amount of work is scary and i just can't deal with it. I constantly am assaulted by my traumatic flashbacks and they make it so hard to concentrate on anything. I'm just done. I'm starting to loose faith in a good future. I think life hates me and it's just funny for it to see me in pain.
I wanna get revenge so bad on all the people that hurt me!! I want to hurt then too! This thought is just not leaving me!! I want to see them in pain! They hurt ME and now they are just living their best lives and here i am crying my eyes out because of them. I hate,hate,hate them!! I wish i was never born at least i wouldn't be in pain now! Life is the worst joke that ever happened to me. I HATE it.
@schrodingerscattt I hope you feel better soon. I believe in you! I believe you're capable of accomplishing great things, and we're here to support you at 7Cups. <3 Much love your way. You got this.
Everyone feels like this sometimes and you just have to take a break and clear your mind! Think about the positive things in your life! I’m sure that you can get through this :).
@schrodingerscattt
I read what you said, and it sounds rough man. I think its good that you are working hard but I'm sorry that its been a bumpy ride, if you need someone to talk to it'd be great to get to know you, please try and stay strong, all the best.
@schrodingerscattt I too been there. Back in middle school I wanted to beat everyone and anyone that opposed me. But I knew that was not the way. This hatred was self sabotaging my self with all of its negativity. Later in life I learned to forgive my enemies, not because they deserved it. But because I just wanted peace. Find peace, learn to let go of the very people that has wronged you. I know it sounds stupid but trust me, this hatred is something that should not be held. Everyday or every week you think about the worst events that happens to them fueled by hatred. It's eating you up inside like a parasite feeding on your negative energy and bonded by the past. The past is the past, and the past we should let go of, for we are not in the present and a new sun arises with each day. As the future is coming towards us by the second, the past is leaving us as the same goes by. Do you get it now? Once you find peace, things will get easier. As for your work in college, I suggest going to a trusted adult try to take a break to gather yourself, a 4 day break will do well enough. Your mental health should be a priority,