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, My name is

John, I’m 25 years old, and I am reaching out because I’ve been struggling mentally and

emotionally for a long time and would like to begin counselling support. About 2.5 years ago, I went

through a painful breakup that left me feeling deeply abandoned. Since then, I’ve been

experiencing depression, loss of focus, and isolation. I quit my job and have mostly stayed indoors

for the last two years. During that time, I also experienced hallucinations and paranoia after

accidentally smoking a small crushed portion of my father’s schizophrenia medication mixed with

weed. This incident caused a severe reaction — it felt like an “explosion” in my mind — and soon

after, I started hallucinating and feeling that I was in danger. I received 3 ECT (Electroconvulsive

Therapy) sessions afterward and have had no hallucinations since then. I haven’t taken any

medication since the ECT treatments. My father has schizophrenia, and I’m worried about whether

this condition could affect me or be passed on to my future children. I also currently smoke weed

regularly (every few hours), but I want to stop completely and heal naturally. Right now, I’m trying to

complete my Certified Ethical Hacker (CEH) course. I’ve already passed the exam but struggle to

focus and practice the tools because of depression and low motivation. I want to get better and

rebuild my life — both mentally and professionally — without relying on medication if possible. I’m

looking for: - Regular counselling or therapy (preferably online) - Guidance on managing

schizophrenia risk and drug-induced psychosis recovery - Support to improve focus and emotional

stability - Help building a positive daily structure Thank you for taking the time to read this. I truly

want to recover and rebuild myself, and I’d appreciate your guidance and support. Warm regards