The loneliness won't go away

So, I've always been really close with my sibling, and now, they've moved away. It's been over a year and- I'm still heart broken. He barely talks to me anymore. It's like we're strangers who don't know each other on the rare occasion he blesses me with a phone call.(And I have to beg and cry and be so depressed to for him to even do that.)

It's to the point every time he texts me, even small stuff. I get so sad. A wave of loneliness washes over me. I'm shaking as I write this because I miss him so much but- I dunno. Do I miss him or, do I miss the idea of him at this point? He's totally moved on and has gotten a hole partner and I'm just here. In my home town. Still the same boring person I've always been. Without his magic to make my life worth living.