Thoughts about my life
I don't have a support system. I don't really like my family. And my family have given me the most trauma. I'm scared to go out in public. I'm afraid of getting hurt by people(strangers) my family hurt me, so why couldn't someone else hurt me. I've never dated someone that I'm attracted to. I only ever dated one girl and that was about 8 years ago. And I'm gay and have never been in a gay relationship or had any gay experiences. I'm lost in life and I have nobody. All I've ever had is myself and that's not enough.
@Joey05814
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I'm sorry you have no support system.
And you are exploring your sexuality.
It takes time to feel comfortable, but there's no rush.
It's about slowly allowing yourself to open up and meet people big not everyone is deserving of this 💙
Coming here is a good start.
You are welcome 💙🤗
Theres support here
Same, But I like going to the public because it feels safer
Make your self happy dear,, we can talk too
Make your self happy dear,, we can talk too
@Joey05814
Joey, I'm sorry you have experienced so much hurt, and from people who are supposed to support you most. Learning to trust again after experiencing trauma can be really challenging. Sometimes, and I don’t know if you feel this way, there’s a space where we can get caught between craving to not be alone, but afraid to get close to people. It’s such a difficult space to be in where being alone seems to make things worse or reinforce negative beliefs we might have about ourselves, and yet the fear of being hurt keeps us from getting too close to other people.
I can only imagine how isolating it must be to not have experienced a relationship that aligns with your sexuality, leaving a big part of who you are unexplored. That's a part of your identity that you haven't been able to lean into and get to know more of. I hear how much your trauma has impacted you and the fear you carry with you from the things you’ve been through. I’m glad that you reached out here, because I know there are many people here who are able to relate to the feelings you’ve described. You're not alone.
We’re here for you! 🙂
Im happy to help