Trying to hold on
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Hi. I'm struggling to hold on right now. I don't wanna be alive but i perfectly know i don't wanna really die, it's just not how i want my life to go. But i am wayyy too overwhelmed. I have a therapist right now but it's not really helping. I cannot express HOW DONE AND SICK I am of people who say go to therapy, go to therapy, talk to a trusted friend! IT DOES NOT HELP. THE ONLY PERSON I HAVE IS MYSELF. I HAVE NO ONE ELSE AND I CAN RELY ONLY ON ME. I MADE PEACE WITH THIS FACT YESTERDAY. I AM JUST SO DONE BUT I WILL STAY ALIVE JUST FOR MYSELF BECAUSE NO ONE CARES ANYWAYS APART MYSELF.
@schrodingerscattt I'm really sorry to hear that you're feeling this way. It's tough when it seems like no one understands. For what it's worth, I care about you and what you're going through. It's a positive step that you've made peace with staying alive for yourself. If you ever need someone to talk to, I'm here to listen without judgment 💙
@Mya000
Thank you. I would like to talk but in the same time i am scared of actually addressing my issue. Lately i don't know why my trauma has been reemerging and it scares me so bad. I wanna do everything i can to forget about it but it only makes things worse. I finally got a therapist, it's really hard to find one in my area plus it's expensive😭but it won't help me magically and i know there is a majority of work that i have to do on my own. I'm just tired. I don't get it why life is supposed to be that hard.
@schrodingerscattt It takes great strength to acknowledge your feelings and seek help, and I commend you for reaching out to a therapist. Dealing with re-emerging trauma can be incredibly tough, and it's completely okay to feel scared and tired. Healing is a journey, and it's okay to take things one step at a time. If you ever need someone to talk to or simply share your thoughts, I'm here to listen. Take care of yourself 💖
Hello, I know it’s hard to keep going on, but each wound makes you stronger. Everything will get better, I understand the feeling of not having nobody. But, as you said, the only person you have is yourself, and that’s the biggest thing you can have in life, and the only thing is worth fighting for. I care about you, and a lot of people here care about you too, if you want to talk with someone, you have me here to listen to you. I hope soon you can get out of this. You’re strong!
@tempestad
Thank you!! It means a lot❤ Some days it gets better but sometimes it's overwhelming. The worst in this situation is the lack of support of my family. I trusted them and thought i can rely on them but it turned out i was wrong. It's so tough to fo it all alone
I dont know how to help you. But i wish you to find Peace with yourself. Its ok if you feel this way. Its normal. Yaa we all want our life to go in some direction but it will go by its own. Dont think and stress too much. Its ok to let go things. The only thing that realy matters is you.