Venting

Depression lies to us, that just really happens on our brain. It makes us unable to see how people really do care. One of my best friends’ Only brother took his own life A couple of weeks ago. The funeral home was standing room only, so many people, And many of them had not talked to him in decades. But everybody there cared, and not just cared, Loved him too. We just didn’t know what he was going through. ** Everyone is still incredibly devastated. None of us will really ever recover From losing him**

Depression makes us think that people don’t want to hear from us when we reach out. But this is what I was surprised to find out when I thought I had nothing to lose, When I was deeply depressed, And I took a chance and reached out to several people: Not everybody, But more than half of the people who I reached out to We became so much better, friends When I took the chance to be very vulnerable, I told them how much I deeply appreciated that They were in my life as a friend, even though we hadn’t talked much in a very long time, I honestly asked for help And how I didn’t want to feel so alone and if it was OK if I just talked about what was really going on in my life and (not just said oh I’m doing fine. I’m doing fine. How are you?) I asked him if they would please pray for me because honestly, I’m doing terrible And I’m terribly depressed . I asked them if I could pray for real things in their life if they want to open up and share about anything I promised I would pray for them . I told them how I couldn’t sleep because I was so depressed, Told them about getting me down and the terrible feelings that I had. Told him about relationships that had crushed me, traumatic Experiences.

I think that the reason that old friendships drift away And it seems like they don’t care anymore It’s because people get tired of Putting up a front and pretend pretending like everything is OK and everything is great. You could open up to people and you would be really surprised, Half of them will be so happy that you opened up, And they will even share their own struggles about the hard things in their life, And you realize that they were hoping that they could open up to someone too. Think back to People that you haven’t talked to in years, Reach out and please take that chance. How can I pray for you and would you please pray for me? My life is really hard now and this is specifically All the real reasons it Is so hard It’s amazing The conversations that can start that way, and the friendships that had become dull But they can become so alive again.

I’m praying for you for that courage to take Those Chances with everybody you know or once knew! And here’s a really long hug from me to you as a survivor who felt just like you did A few years ago And I’m so thankful that I started taking those chances and calling people. ❤️