Where do I belong?

The loneliness and sadness is pushing me to my breaking point. I feel isolated and unloved. I spend most days wishing I was gone. I want someone to care about me. In a genuine way, where they talk to you all the time because they can’t ever get enough of it. I’ve dreamed of being in a happy relationship, but nobody puts in the same amount of effort I do. I’ve been betrayed, lied to, and emotionally destroyed by many, yet I still stand here alone. I’ve learned to never trust anyone. Trust can only last so long before they end up hurting you. All I have is myself, and I don’t even like myself. People say things will get better with time. It’s been over a year since my miscarriage and the most gut-wrenching heartbreak ever. That on top of several failed situationships and friends who broke promises. When will my suffering end? When will somebody finally care about me in the slightest? When will I finally get to be in a happy relationship, healthy relationship?