I hear what you’re saying. Hopelessness is such a horrible thing.
So, im 16y old, and since my 14's ive been struggling with feelings like sadness and emptiness, same as addictions like binge eating and sh.
Im an intense person, i feel everything at 100 or at 0, and that's horrible, but it's what it is.
Now I take antidepressants, but I've struggled alone with all of this till April of this year, it's been such a horrible and hard fight, my friends help me, but, yk, it's not that easy to get over something that seems to control you every single day.
This is my "story", if you are struggling with the same or another things, talk to someone, don't keep it to yourself, because, i know how bad it can turn, and I've kept it to myself till now, bye guys.