graduation depression rant

I’m feeling really depressed. I’m on an antidepressant that works well for me, and having my ADHD medicated helps a lot too. But my primary goal in life was to go to college and graduate. School often left me in a survival state, but at least it provided a sense of purpose. Now I’m struggling to work through job applications and I barely leave my room. I’m playing video games to relax but all my friends are gone for the break and I just feel really alone. I feel disconnected with my religion but I know God loves me and supports me. I’ve just had it drilled into my skull that a lack of work makes life meaningless, so when I’m not working or contributing to society I feel worthless. It’s just a lot to carry and I’m afraid that even finding work won’t alleviate my feelings; I’ve always had school to structure my life and demand constant attention and productivity. It’s just a big transition and I’m really overwhelmed.