i dont know how to cope

i f16 was dating m16 my bf for a couple months. he helped me heal after i was assaulted by an ex partner. he cared for me, helped me when i was most anxious and depressed and allowed me to create a new life for myself. but his mother recently found out about us, she wasnt approving of our relationship so we had to hide. we were each other’s everything, he helped me through my traumas and unstable home condition. his mom forced him to leave me, he watched over him as he had to cut off contact with me. we made a promise to meet in the future again. but i miss my sweet boy so much. my mom is tired of my struggles, she gave up on me. im quite lonely, as i lost friends due to my poor health. im slowly rotting physically, i cannot bring myself to shower, i cannot eat, i cannot sleep. im doing my best, but i need friends, i need support from people who have also experienced this feeling of hopelessness. please dont judge me, i know im young but i have gone through so much and we have a deep connection and maturity.