im done with my life

I did something stupid for the second time, and I feel like I can’t handle it anymore right now. I just lost all of my savings because I got completely out of control with trading. I even borrowed money from my friends and ended up paying them interest just so they would help me. The only thing I could give them as collateral was all of my identification cards, so they would feel safe helping me. I told them that, God forbid, if I ever became late with the payments or couldn’t pay them back, they could contact my parents or even expose me publicly.

Now I honestly don’t know what to do anymore. I feel like I’ve run out of time. I actually do have some sources of income, and I’m always willing to keep trying, but I feel like I just don’t have enough time to make it in time.