struggling

i’m 20 and i have no job and im getting called lazy when i really can’t get myself to get one and i don’t know why. recently i have been feeling really negative about my future and how useless it will be to continue on. my depression got bad in 2021 when i finally got out of an (TW) abusive relationship which really knocked me down and ever since then i’ve felt worse i quit my hobby i haven’t been out for several months, saw any of my friends (feel like i don’t have any) and just feel really lonely. and i honestly can’t see myself having a future i feel like a failure and disappointment. i used to be on medication which i thought didn’t seem to work and i just stopped taking it (which i shouldn’t have) feel uncomfortable talking to people about my feelings so im really struggling on what to do with myself at the moment. if anyone has advice, please <3