this is scary
arent I tired of all of this, waking up feeling *** for no apparent reason, feeling weak and worthless for feeling this way, having no where or no one to go to, feeling like ur stuck inside a prison in ur own brain, wanting to get out of this body but not being able to. Feeling like your only escape is dying, and thats all that clutters your mind for weeks until one day the feeling disappears and you feel empty with no purpose and the cycle repeats. I want out
I’m so sorry You are going through this … So many hugs to you you deserve… What makes you feel the most free? … what used to make you feel free?… What little thing that you can do right now? … Maybe you feel stuck about a lot of big things in life, but, What about you that you lost along the way?…. You are still YOU inside… There is a part of you that all of the bad people and all of the bad life circumstance Can never get to… Remember who you always were and be become reacquainted with the real you inside!! Can you do one tiny step today to start the real you chiseling out of that cage? You can get out and feel alive again , I believe in you you are so yearning to be free. One small step today.
I am really truly praying for you today, And I hope that you will pray all day. Prayer is the most transformative thing I have ever experienced, And I’m a really grounded person so I wouldn’t just say that. Prayer isn’t some magical, ridiculous fairy tale, I am amazed myself that once I started praying every day and really pouring my heart out and saying all of the hurt To God Sometimes even yelling and screaming and crying, Just letting it out every day. Wow, He is really listening. God really wants to hear from you all day today. And all day tomorrow again. Many hugs.
