Advice!

Hello there, @StillHealingMe

I'm so happy to hear that you're about to marry the love of your life, that's just so amazing! :) Trust issues can really make a relationship challenging, but they don't necessarily have to ruin in if you manage to keep them under control. I can't really give you any advice on this but I think honest and consistent communication between you and your future husband is essential. Not only it would help you manage your emotions better and ensure that you guys keep close and intimate with each other so that you can feel secure about it but it would also help him undertand you and what you're dealing with better. As for what you are concerned perhaps some regular mindfulness exercises would help you become more aware of yourself and your life so you don't get to live so much in the past/future and learn to really enjoy and appreciate what you have in the present.

I hope you'll find ways to make it work and don't forget to always keep positive about it, it will be okay! :)