At a loose end

Good morning everyone. Im Shaka from the good old UK.

To cut a long story short, Ive just been admitted to a phycriatric hospital for the first time for recurrent depressive disorder and self harming. Ive never self harmed before but now I feel like I cant stop and that I have to do it. I dont want to do it because I know its wrong and I feel ashamed after Ive done it.

Im worried that because of it that Im going to loose my job in the Royal Navy and that Im not going to be able to provide for my wife and children. They all deserve better that what Im able to give at the moment and Im really struggling to find a way out of this hole that Im in.

Any advice or magic wands would be greatly appreciated

love to all

shaka. X