I'm Sarah
I've had depression as long as I can remember, but I was diagnosed when I was 13.
I have good and bad days, like anyone else.
But lately I've been in a deep pit. I had an 18 week miscarriage over a year ago. I've since had a happy, healthy baby who I love very much. But I miss my first son dearly. I find myself wanting to go back to destructive behavior (self harm, overeating) and I honestly can't stand myself. I feel disjointed and I feel like no one cares about me or my baby in heaven.
Well, posting in here was obviously a mistake. It seems again that no one cares about me.
I self-harmed. So that's great.
@mrsbrazell your best bet is not to go to a forum hun :(. I don't know how active they are. Hit me up with a request if you want to talk about anything :)
@mrsbrazell it wasn't a mistake, I wish I had seen your post sooner. You've been very brave and all of your feelings are valid and understandable, I can't imagine what you're going through but even if it doesn't feel like it people do care about you. Have you tried speaking to someone close about how you're feeling? You've done so well to not self harm, it can't have been easy but I hope you don't go back down that road, you've come so far x