Love disaster - depression/anxiety

Hello, european girl here.

Well here is my story. I am 22 old student. I like girls (only). So couple of years ago i met the girl i liked, we stayed in contact for quite sometime, she was the first who contacted me, and then she stopped talking to me out of blue ( never gave me true reason - i even asked her - when thinking about it now its possible we had misunderstanding - she always kept liking my pictures on facebook). So i kinda started getting over her. Then i got in University and met another girl which i liked and she liked me, we had something, but then we havent talked for about a year - i was way too much into Uni work, not focusing on the things that mattered most to me really (even my health and hapiness suffered sometimes) - i also had troubles letting someone in my life i quess (was only in one long distance relationship before that) - just not at the best stage of my life. Couple of months ago i wanted to contact her again but then saw she is in relationship with girl i mentioned before.

Since then im really depressed for 3 months already. Online tests showed i have severe depression and severe anxiety. Everyday i have troubles getting out of bed and doing normal things. Those two girls were just perfect to me in all aspects and im sure ill never find a girl like that anymore. It is really hard to find a girl you like and she likes you (especially from my small country), im sure ill be single for years now or even forever. I lost motivation for everything, things that made me happy before dont make me happy anymore.Its like i lost everything - even myself.

Im searching for meaning of life everyday. I know educaton/work/money.. cant bring me hapiness, but i have to find hapiness/meaning in something. I never had problems like that before, was always happy and good student. I have no idea how i wil forget them and live normal live - they live 15 min away from me, and one of them is even going to my Uni. And they had a big influence on who I am today so i guess ill have to totally change my life.

I know i should live in te present moment but its easier said than done. I started reading the book "David Burns- "When Panic Attacks". And if things wont get better im also thinking about getting professional help. My family doesnt know anything about my depression and sexuality so far. Any suggestions/help?

Excuse my English.