My life should be perfect....but it
On paper I have a great life. I have THE most amazing and supportive boyfriend, earn more money than I ever have (although still not a huge amount) and yet more often than not I feel numb. I just dont feel anything. I feel like Im wasting my life and half the time this worries me, the rest I just dont care. I feel like my BF deserves better than me. Someone who isnt so sad all the time
Hi there,
Thank you for reaching out and sharing your story with us. I'm sorry to hear that you've been feeling numb despite how other aspects of your life seem to be going well. It bears repeating, that depression doesn't always happen because our lives are objectively difficult. It affects people all of all walks of life, rich or poor, so I hope you won't feel too guilty simply because you have a supportive boyfriend and that your career is going well currently. You deserve just as much compassion and help as anyone else with depression.
If you find that your mood is affecting you significantly (such as causing marked distress, affecting your ability to enjoy things you normally love to do, or affecting your functioning like ability to work/relationships), help is always available, be it professionals or resources on 7 cups.
@Helenc2904
I am sorry you are feeling this way. I understand how you feel like you weigh people down, especially your bf but know that it is not you, it is anegative thought sparked by depression. Depression does not target a particular culture or community. And while many people with money and enough materialistic might seem lucky than most, but it doesn't make them happy. Happiness and gratefulness derives from within yourself, together with acceptance, might help you through this difficult period. Do not hesitate to contact any available listeners for support. Sending you love and motivation.
