A hole with water
My wife that I thought was the one. Recently wanted to get a divorce. That was almost 2 months ago when she told me in a note she left me. I was crushed. I tried to commit suicide and police kicked in the door and cut the belt. Now I’m living in this constant state of depression wanting to never wake up. I’m stuck in the hole with water. I’m so so tired and really want to rest but I can’t. I don’t know how to live with myself. I can’t sleep at nights either because I have nightmares of the police kicking the doors and having no one around to support me. What is the point? What’s the point of going through this? How do you know that it will get better?
Oh man. I know what you are feeling. The abject pain. The feeling that things can't possibly get better. What is the point in living. What I can tell you is to just hold on. I don't know what the point of life is. But I know I like the smell in the air after it rains. I know I like to jump the waves in the ocean. I love a campfire. I like a nice hot bath. I like to eat whip cream straight from the can. I like watching comedy shows. I love to cuddle with my dog when she knows I'm upset. Hold onto the very tiny things that you love. Try not to think about the rest. Take your breath. You need time to heal. Crazy maybe, but go for a walk in a public space, maybe join a gym. Set an appointment with yourself for these things and make yourself go, even if you don't want to. You won't see it but you will come out of this. YOU WILL enjoy the sun on your skin again. I promise this. Take care my friend and know that you are not alone.