Alone in The Crowd
I wanted to bring light to the dark corner of psychological isolation. The feeling of being alone no matter how many people you have around you. Yes, you may have friends, family, and maybe a significant other, but somehow you still feel you have no one.
This must have a name, I just don't know what to call it.
This is how I've felt my entire life. Alone. No one to talk to. And the inability to communicate this due to the fear that you will just be brushed off. Everyone will tell you that your feelings are silly. Or worse, you'll turn to someone you trust and they will mock or take advantage of your unstable emotional state. This is what I fear.
Every time I build up the courage to open up the person I trust either silences me, mocks me, or thinks that gives them permission to advance on me.
All I want is someone to talk to. Not a significant other, not a savior. Just someone who understands, listens, and maybe can help me.
I know everyone is busy with their own demons but I've always been there for others regardless of the chaos happening in my life or my mind. So, why can't anyone find the time to help me?
@courteousLunch82 That's probably the most prominent symptom of depression, the sense of being uniquely broken, and unable to connect to anyone or anything. It's awful. It's much harder to overcome if you experienced traumatic grief and loss in childhood - or any kind of trauma, really. It changes the brain. I mean, on the upside, we know from brain science that the brain can be changed, and we have practical tools like cognitive behavioral therapy to help us get there... but that doesn't make it any easier to be in that dark corner, while you are there.