A war within my self

The hardest part of being depressed isn’t being ashamed, ashamed to look at my loved ones feeling worthless feeling like they deserve more and I am not enough for them. The hardest part isn’t laying in bed ALL day with no motivation to move even tho I have reasons to get up. The hardest part isn’t putting on a fake smile when inside you feel so empty. The hardest part isn’t looking in the mirror and not recognizing your self. The hardest part isn’t the tears that are inside of you that won’t even come out anymore because you’ve cried so much. The hardest part is fighting a war with your self. It’s the hardest part because you are the SAME the same strength when you are in a battle it’s about strength, plan etc etc when your fighting a mirror of that how do you win ? How do we win a battle within our self ? How do we explain to someone a feeling that we don’t even understand ? We down load apps we do research we get on medicine we meditate we do all that we can but everyday is unpredictable every minute is unpredictable living with depression is a war it’s a battle I just gotta keep finding the strength to fight but for every one out there who faces this same battle you are NOT alone 🖤🧡🧡