Can't deal with this life anymore
My chronic pain and my depression and anxiety is too much to handle . I'm sick of hurting and sick of the evil forces that follow me. I want to die soon. Urges are constant to kill myself. No one understands me .
It sounds like life is feeling very stressful for you, and I'm sorry that you are feeling this way. You should know that you deserve to feel happiness. I, and I'm sure many others, encourage you to call1-800-273-8255, the suicide hotline. You are also free to talk to any of the trained listeners on this site; we would all be glad to help you.
I feel your pain....But there are many aspects of this life and we need to remember we are better then the sum of our parts. Your mind is a Battlefield and you need to take controlof the wild thoughts controlling your emotions and start focusing on more positive and productive areas of your life experience. Sitting around and whining about our conditions is non-productive and self destructive. Trustme. I know, Been in that hole and am climbing out one battle at a time! From Cancer, brain tumor, Divorce, house fire that took 99%of my possessionsand my beloved companion for 4 years, Moo..My dog. I just got laid off and now am fortunate enough to live in a trailer on my property where they are rebuildingmy burnt out house. It won't bring back my dog but everything will be new. I lucky I hadinsurance. My daughters mother in law's apartment caught fire and they had no insurance. Lost all of their possessionsand were hurt jumping out the windows. I feel blessed and have to say am ashamed of myself for feeling sorry for my situation when I beat cancer and am alive able to live in a relatively warm place with privacy. Sure I have no job yet but now I can start a new position, hopefully soon and move forward one tiny step at a time. YES I feel I want to end this life...and I will...because this life sucks...I will make a new one elsewherethis is NOT the end of me. I am reinventing myself on this earth and will darn wellbe happy and helpful until the good Lord takes me home naturally. God bless
I can't deal with this life anyway. Every time I say I am finally happy someone come and tear me down again. I have depression and I cant to any doctors couse my mum doesn't know. I never thought of hurting myself until today. And guess what my dad is the reason of it all
@FaridAshry, i know how you feel. I have had many bad things happen to me in my life. I guess the worst being when i was a kid my dad sexually molested me on 4 or 5 occasions. He had something to do with breaking me up with the girl i loved the most and we had been talking about getting married. A few years ago i nearly lost half my hand in a work accident. I have people at work threatening me and harassingme because im on light duty because of this injury. Last year i lost not only my mom but 2 aunts also. And just a couple of months ago, i found out that girl that my dad played apart in breaking up, died 7 years ago. Imhaving a hard time but getting better because of my counselor, 7 cups of tea site, and something i like doing when i browse at the listeners is to read the sayings they have listed. i just read them and think about them. they have some smart people on here. take some time and just look at different things on here. i always feel better afterwards.
i promise you i understand this feeling. its horrible and i get it, but i can honestly say it gets better. you will get past this and you will be so happy that you did, you deserve to live a long and happy life and you will. you will come out much stronger then others and you will be able to help other people who are feeling just like you are right now. Think of your family and friends. they love you even if they dont say it out loud, try to be strong for them. beat this battle and keep your head held high hun
@Starsinthesky23, I understand the way you feel. I have been through a lot in my life. I dont want to rewrite everything but if you look further down this page, youll see some of the stuff i have dealt with. PLEASE DONT GIVE UP!!!! I know stuff feels bad right now. I have never felt like taking my own life but there has been times i wish i wasnt still around. Do you ever wonder where those stars in the sky came from? I know you dont feel like it, but there are people who care for you!! I dont know you or anyone else on here, but i would care if you or anyone else on here werent around anymore. PLEASE GET SOME HELP and spend some time on here. there are people on here that will be there for you at any time of the day or night.