Can't take this anymore
Hey, so I just feel really sad, lonely, angry and all that. Im finding it hard to cope, constantly thinking about suicide and self harm. The other day I relapsed and I self harmed, it was all getting too much. The thing is I dont know what's wrong with me, and I don't know how much more I can take. Is dying too much to ask for? I just hate life, and I hate the way I am.
I just wanna be perfect for my family. I want to be how they want me to be. If that makes sense. Im constantly thinking that I have to change just so I don't let everyone down. Feel like no one cares about me and no one loves me. Which isn't true I know, it's just how it feels sometimes.
I'm always feelings exhausted, like no matter how much sleep I get I'm still soo tired. I don't know what to do about that either. Everything is just so hard and I need a way out. But there is no way out. Just feel like Its all my fault
Anyway, hope you all are having a good day 💕
Hey @bestMap6925 I'm lonely and life is difficult for me too me, but we can get through this bad spell. I look forward to the future being better. Tomorrow I'm going to set my alarm and get up early for my appointment. Getting up early has been a goal of mine the past couple weeks, but I've failed. Tomorrow...I won't fail. I'm gonna do it and get out of my bad sleep schedule.Sorry to hear about your self harm relapse. Is there someone in real life you can talk to when things are bad? If not, try venting on 7cups before you consider sh. Whether it be in group chat, the forums or a private talk with a listener. We are listening. I'm mostly on the Journal Support Check In board though.
You can do this! Just keep trying. Even if you only have moments where you feel like you are ok, that's a good start. Those moments can grow. And then a good hour can eventually become a good day.
What I said to you, I say to myself too. I believe that things will get better. I hope you can believe too 🙂
