Christmas worrying 🎄
Hi everyone !
Christmas is coming around the corner and i just don’t feel in the christmas mood... at all. I’m spending Christmas Day only with my mother. I’m used to not having a massive family gathering this time of year, I have never really had the whole family come round or anything like that because I don’t have a huge family anyway... but i still feel like I’m missing out in some way because of this. Both of my siblings don’t live at home anymore and now spend Christmas with their bf/gf and my grandparents live too far away to travel so they probably won’t visit. I know I should be grateful I’m not alone, but I can’t help but feel slightly sad in a way. I hope everyone has a great Christmas & a happy new year !! 🎄❤️
It's artificial when society presses is to be happy and merry in a specific day.
I find it harmful to mental health. The forced positivity is poison.
This is the first Christmas that I’m genuinely struggling. I used to love Christmas I think, honestly I’m not sure, maybe I didn’t. Maybe I just let myself believe that I was happy on Christmas. I could be around people, even people who are, “my family,” and somehow I feel so alone or worse, my anxiety gets the best of me.
Happy New Year
