Depressed and I have no idea what to do.
Hey. I am kinda new so hello. I do noy really know why I write posts like this one buy well.
So, hello. You can call me Connor. In general I found this site (7 cups) on a suicide hotline webpage. I wanted to find a chat thing rather than an actual phone service because I am too socially anxious. So anyway I have been on a pretty bad state of minds for about 3 years (little more) and I have been up and down. Overall I noted that I became more reserved and quiet and worry way too much but not about the right things. I gave up on trust and friends so I feel pretty lonely but I really do not wany to get back to those. I think I am too agressive while talking, I am mean and I really HATE that aboyt myself among other things.
I have tried different things over the years, looking what to do on the internet, talking about it, try to ignore it but I just vannot seem to get better because I feel everything around me either drags me down or points out that I am not ok and I just feel horrible.
So anyway, kinda let myself go there. So hello again. And uh.... yeah.
Thanks for reading
@5CallMeConnor
We read you...and some of us are depressed too so even if you perceive it as a cliche answer "we know how you feel", because we go through pretty much the same hell only personalised for each and one of us even if depression manifests and attacks us in the same way...I am sorry to see another soul striken down...
So welcome Conor (like the immortal highander...)...I found 7cups much in the same way trying to self heal and looking for free answers and free support...
@feelitinyourbones
Hey, I am sure you know how I feel and so not worry about cliches. Thanks for taking the time to read and I am sure you got your stuff. As you said it really seems personalized to mess us up as hard as it can. At least it feels like it. So I hope someday we all will get to a better place but for now just gotta deal with it.
