Depression 103

so I have a friend and we live in 2 different cities but same state we never really saw each other bc at the time neither 1 of us has a car he does but I don’t but recently he just got a car and when he got the 1st person he came to see was me I felt so special I have feelings for him but the day he came to see me I fell harder then ever and we were sitting in front of my yard in his car we were holding hands and his presence just felt right and that right there made my day and his car is messed so now idk if able to see him Saturday