Depression Sucks When You Don't Have Anyone to Confide In...
I have depression. I have had it since the middle of seventhgrade, and I am now going into high school. This depression has gotten extremely worse to the point where, everyday, I feel like if I died no one would care and that they'd all just go on with their everyday lives. I mean, I have no friends, my 'family' doesn't like me, and I don't have an impact on anyone so, why would it matter if I killed myself? It wouldn't... I tried last year, but, like everything else in my life, I failed, clearly It's one of those things where you just want to tell someone so they could help you. So they could be something or give you something that is worth living for. But, I have no friends... at all. I am just that loner in the corner who doesn't talk, get bad grades and is an outcast.
I want someone that can make these problems better but, sadly, I have no one that'll care. It just... it's hard. But, what can I do? No one likes me anyways... I'm just annoying and weird because I'm emo. Sorry for doing this... I just... I thought this would be interesting but, it's not...
You're not alone. I know it feels like it now, but keep holding on and I promise that you'll be okay. I'm guessing from your name that you're a SWS, CTE, and PTV fan. I don't listen to CTE but in the words of Kellin Quinn: "Sometimes you gotta fall before you fly, we're gonna work it out." And in the words of Vic Fuentes: "Darling, you'll be okay." I can't tell you that you'll be okay yomorrow. I can't say that you'll be better next week, next month, or even next year, but I will tell you that if you give up, it will never get better. Please stay strong, love! ♡
I am alone. All my friends are either hopped up on heroin. Or completely sober. I have no one. I Don't Connect With Anyone except For My neice. She is almost 5 months old.... and she is my only friend. And I feel awful for fucking saying that when I'm a 21 year old woman who should be out enjoying my age but instead I'm home, alone. Blinds shut shades down. Under a blanket crying most days. I never do anything. The only time I'm truly happy anymore is when my brother visits me with the baby or I babysit. It's sad. I'm just done. I'm so alone and I just want 1 person 1 fucking person man. I'm walking this world alone with just the shadow behind me.
To be able to unconditionally love a child that is not yours shows me that you are full of love and compassion. You are not alone here and you have people who care to connect with you. You can make it. You will make it.
I'm also 21 and most of my days when I'm not at work I am completely alone. Even when my roommates are home I still feel overwhelmingly alone. I think sometimes that maybe I'm just not that comfortable with being alone with myself. I'm not sure what it is, but I know it really hurts.
Nooo. *wraps everyone in a blanket and hands out hot chocolate* Please connect with a listener. We want to be your friend. I know I do! I know it may seem empty and hopeless. It is hard to get out of that rut and everything we try to do seems to be in vain. It takes a lot out of us to go out and be social and even when we do it seems like all the forces in the world are working against us, but the film over our eyes is distorting reality. We can be happy. We can be social and comfortable with ourselves. Sometimes we just need someone to hold our hand while we clamor out of the darkness.
Well first, thank you for sharing. Second your not alone.
Reading this post made me feel so much emotion. I have been there before. I have felt alone, like a failure, no one wanted to be my friend etc.
One thing I learned is that you can't find happiness in other people, so stop trying. Find happiness within yourself, love yourself, believe in yourself, and the right people will come around. It sounds like you are putting a lot of pressure on yourself, STOP.
Find structure in your life, make a routine, do things you enjoy. If youre not happy with your boyfriend, dont be with him. If something makes you miserable, stop doing it. I dont know how old you are but im assuming youre quite young.
Im young too, im only 21, and have lived in many places just like you. England and Australia included, and let me tell you something, I have felt alone, depressed, suicidal, like im a failure, like I suck at everything.
But one thing I know for sure, is that I have my whole life ahead of me to find happiness, things always get better trust me! Sometimes you have to throw out the negativity in your life to see the light! Be strong and try to smile :) I promise life isnt that awful. It can be amazing. You just have to try to see the positivity. Look in the mirror and tell yourself that you love everything about you, that youre smart, youre driven, and everything is going to get better, and believe it! Because it will. Dont give up, okay? :) there are good people out there, you jsut gotta find them!
I apologize i commented on the wrong thread, But many of these things apply to you too. Im only a message away if you ever need soemone to talk to :)
@xcrownthesirenveilx Finally someone that has the same thing. I am going into 7th grade and have had depression since 5th grade. This all started when my grandparents died. We left for India. I left without telling my BFF. When I came back, she looked different. Acted differently. She was popular, I could tell. She dyed her hair and wore black. She hung out with the popular and pretty girls. I haven't talked to her ever since. She doesn't know how much I miss her. She honestly doesn't look like she cares. I lost all my friends. My family seems like complete strangers. They act like I'm not there. What difference would it make if I was gone?
