Depression
I constantly feel like I don't want to be alive anymore, but I'm terrified of death. I don't have the desire to cut myself because I don't understand what it has to offer. I basically have no way to cope with my depression besides feeling every single emotion intensely.
That's how I feel lately. I know my meds work but I feel like lately my life isnt allowing them to catch up. I've cried at work the past two days! It's overwhelming when it comes in the way of work
Lainey,
I have so many problems lately that has brought on depression that i can not overcome. I do not know what to do to get out of what I"m in.
I have sever health issues, relationship issues, depression and anxiety which has surfaced since my emergency health issues.
I know it's hard. It's so hard, and I don't know what to do either. I don't know how to get out of this whole.
Lainey, I found your post to be kind of insightful. Being terrified of death is something I think we share we many other creatures on earth. I think it is the most basic instinctive driving force in us. It is what gives us the will to survive. It is why a lion chases a gazelle, and why the gazelle runs. But as humans, we have this unique need to survive with meaning. It's not enough for us to just eat, sleep and breathe, we want something more, when you said that you don't cut yourself because you don't see what it has to offer, that told me that you are someone who is looking for meaning. Something that does offer you something in return. Perhaps it's not that you don't want to be alive, per se, but that you don't want to live as you do now. You want more. Does that sound accurate?
Exactly. And I've had this thought before. Because whenever I think about it, I think "I don't want to be here anymore." Not "I don't want to live anymore." I think I just don't want to live like this.
iv been depressed for years lost everything including 3 children 4 grandchildren because of my ex husband
Hey I'm having such a horrible time this holiday my husband has lost his office of work for the third time in three years we have no money and he decided to take it out on me. Christmas Eve we went to church with my son and as we got out of the car he took off to sit somewhere else so he ended up meeting up with us but it was not such a great feeling then when we got home he took off to get a drink at the bar never came home. Christmas morning I get messages from our mutual friends that he had posted a very nasty facebook post about me and deleted and blocked me so I could not see it. Now he is friends with my family so my family saw this lets just say he tried to ruin me for really no reason. Till this day he has not tried to say and show people that he shouldn't have done that. I know it's the only FB but the content was so bad and untrue I'm not able to hold my head high. I need to get over this but we have been not getting along for awhile and I'm a Christian but sometimes it's just hard and I'm so depressed over this.
When I was younger, maybe 6 or 7, my dad left our family without any explanation. He just left one night and no one knew why, no one had contact with him. He's back in my life now but too this day I have no idea where he went or why. All he's told me is that he didn't want to live like that anymore. I understand your situation if not exactly in the same way.
It feels like I was reading a post that I wrote.. I feel similar