Depression???
I think I have suffered from depression for a very long time but never acknowledge or even bother to deal with it. I remember when I was younger that I would imagine myself wanting to kill myself but the only thing that would stop me from doing the actual feat is the people who are going to probably miss me. I still think about killing myself occasionally especially when I am down. For a very long time I never bothered to reach out or do anything about it. But a new year a new chance so I suppose I can tackle this problem this year. Gosh I have exams tomorrow but this depression is punching the motivation out of me. Anyways I hope I can also make some friends on this site. Im pretty awkward and dont have much friends. Chat to me if you want.
@emotionalBranch4377 Yeah, that sounds like depression. I have depression, too. I guess it all started because when I was little I developed a pessimistic outlook on life that I chose to keep silent about and brood over until it became something far worse. Let me tell you this. The first step to change is acknowledgement and making a decision to change, which you've already done. So hang in there! You can also try reading books about coping with depression. I'm going to be reading Unworthy by Anneli Rufus. Some other things I've tried that have helped are listening to relaxation music, journaling, and writing stories.
I don't know your family situation, but you should definitely let your family know about how you're feeling, too. They might be a source of great help and support to you.
Ah, I feel your pain. I'm socially awkward, too, lol. Anyway, stay strong! Good luck on your exams. :)
@SereneMariposa Thanks!!