Depression swallowing me whole.
I've been struggling with my self image and self worth for over a month now. I had made a lot of progress I think. I was dressing better, feeling better, getting out there more. But all of that changed. One strong rejection from someone who I had deep seeded feelings for seems to have regressed me back into the person who thought he wasn't worth love. That always felt that while it might just be in my grasp... Happiness is just a step too far. I have been in bed a lot. Listening to music constantly, mostly of the sad variety. It seems at times I'm going to get out of it and get myself back on a path of good nature. But I always fall back. I've been clinically depressed for 13 years. Just so no one is thinking this is just strictly about a girl. I just want to reclaim my life and move forward. A month is too long for all the rest of the years I've been wasting with a poor self image. Anyways this is my check in.
@notheroic
I am so sorry you are feeling like this, depression can be very controlling. Keep fighting, you will get through this. I believe in you!! Be yourself and people will love you for it. I hope you have an awesome day. 
@blossombreathe Thank you for the message. :) I've had a better day today then yesterday and the day before... So things are building up. Every now and then I have a swing, but it's getting less. It's a battle. But one I'm more determined to win. Thank you
I'm sorry you are feeling this way. You're strong and just keep your head up <3 @notheroic
@notheroic, how have you been feeling lately?
I wanted to let you know that I moved your thread from the daily check-ins category to the general threads within our sub-community. And that I hope your days are much kinder and more peaceful. We're here for you, lovely.
*hugs*
