Down on my luck

im having a difficult time understanding what is happening to me. I wake up dreading going to work wishing I could sleep all day, but I cant because I know I need to work. Then I come home and my wife is always unwilling to be around me. We hang out but most times it just feels like she hates me. It frustrates me because I feel like I sacrifice so much for her and its like it doesnt matter to her. The way she looks at me like she truly hates my guts. Like she really just despises me. It brings feelings of hopelessness because I feel trapped in my body, in my mind, in this life. I just dont feel Im able to function in society at all. Its like Im an alien, like I dont belong here and I just dont know what to do but to write on this site, hoping to get some guidance.